Couch Wisdom with Dingo: 01/01/2003

i pulled out my old journal today. it was kindof odd. i was writing a check and for some reason noticed my writing on the check and decided that i wanted to write some more. so i went on a hunt for my old canvas bound journal. it took 15 minutes to find but i finally found it right under my desk in plain sight. ahh those brain cells that i have lost to substances. anyway, i just found out the mystery behind writing everyday. and now that i understand, i will surely be spending more time with pen in hand as opposed to watching television..............besides. it rots your brain.

i am sorry to those of you that like to live pg 13 rated lives, but i need to share this with everyone else. random line that you happen to see just before going to bed,

Have any of you girls noticed that men eat pussy better then women do?

some days its just good to be alive.

the last few days have been interesting. working on being a good student is harder than i thought. im still poor and in desparate need of money, but i am surviving. im at work and things need to get done, so ill post later.

robin williams brings up a startling comment. we do not have a pill that can keep you mentally clear deep into your old age, we do not have a pill that will keep you healthy and fit past your hundredth birthday, but we do have a pill that will make you harder than chinese algebra!

i dont know about you, but what the fuck? why do we continue to build weapons and arms that are capible of killing hundreds of thousands but we cannot create something that will help save the lives of people on this planet?

until humanity recognizes that the world and the people in it are all striving to survive and that in order to live on into the distant future we need to stop surviving and start living we will never be able to achieve civilization. human beings are capable of so much wonder and beauty, so why would we destroy that ability? why? ask our world leaders. if they cannot answer the question without talking about economies and debt and land and religion we need to replace the world leaders with people that actually care about people and not about the political machines that actually run countries.

well i didnt actually lose my frog. it was just hiding in the tank under some rocks. but everyone should check out viking king. chad has some interesting thoughts on almost any topic and i am sure he will spark conversation in most of the people that read my blog, so check it out. trust me, it won't hurt a bit....

so, i bought three african frogs to put into my fish tank yesterday and i wake up to find that there are only 2...........i think i have to kill my fish.

so i am cast and i will be directing a show later in the semester after pentecost closes. i have set myself to not skip any classes...we will see if that works out in the end. i have been doing all of my work which is a huge accomplishment for me. i feel pretty good about how the semester is starting out for me.

i started to mend a serious rift in a friendship yesterday. it felt good. had a great time yesterday too. first day of rehearsal and i got money from my parents. hung out with some interesting people. had a conversation with someone and felt that they were trying to get me to do what they wanted..........thats not going to happen.

overall however, i think that this semester is going to be a really good time. especially with the blond hair i get to have and the german i get to learn with a swedish accent. oh well, better get back to doing work.

an overheard conversation at the bar last night:

"you said yourself that you aren't black, you're chocolat..."

that is some funny shit!

finally, casting is over with. i am in pentecost i have 4 small roles so i have quite a bit of preparing to do. 4 characters is an interesting challenge. well, off to class.

at 8am school started again

i passed down to the studio callbacks

dont understand what im feeling and thinking

feeling alone in groups of people

trying to start the semester off right and keep it that way

realized how much of a complete bastard i have been to a certain person

realized that i still made the right decision

im flat broke

got a possible job offer

need to center myself

.......

when does spring break start?

yesterday was filled with many good and many crazy things:

auditioned for two plays throughout the course of the day
watched two people steal
drank some margaritas with 2 very good friends
found out a friend won finals at actf and is going on to washington dc for the national competition
found out a really good friend won best partner with the other guy
got called back for "pusbas" in pentecost
watched 3 people get handcuffed and arrested outside my buddy's apartment building
watched satisfaction take hold in a person

all in all it was a really good day

I'm a Depth Charge, discover your ALcoHoLiC personality!

ahhh, we all knew i had it in me...

(a friend walks into my apartment around 2am after a strange phonecall)

hello again...

it's been a long time. how are you feeling?

i'm good.

would you like a drink...

sure. whatever you are having.

so what's going on in your life? things are good, i hope.......

things are fine.....i'm sorry. i shouldn't be doing this.

what? what are you talking about.

ben, i just. i just. will you just hold me?

uhh, yeah. here. you okay? everything's okay right?

ssshhhhh. everything is fine....now.

strange things i have heard in the last day.....

"you wanna beer or something? we got lieny, honey brown, and one bottle of coors lite...(small pause)...you wanna chicken drumstick?"
---castro's line of rational hosting

"i just fucked all the bitches"
---heard out my window at 4am

okay, i just saw a commercial for the freedom corps. i guess this is somehting that bush is doing to get the us population into volunteer work. it just had someone reading to children and the caption "volunteer teaching"

what the fuck does that mean. now i used to want to be a teacher. i still have strong feelings about eductiaon and i think that that is a crock of shit. bush cut all that money to funding schools and then he goes and makes a commercial asking for "volunteer teachers" what a pile of steaming dog shit.............

stupid commercial.....

"i got an honorary degree from juliard. which is like a nerf dildo. nice to look at, but doesn't really get the job done."

-robin williams

lets recap what happened today:

went to parents

smoked up this afternoon

went to the house of friends of the family-got a awesome candle and 35 bucks to blockbuster

sat around my apartment

went to the cribbo-remind me that castro and bonnie are terrible hosts, but dayo is cool

went to another friends apartment

went home-found a christmas card to me from someone that makes me smile

typing on my blog now.................

things to do tomorrow:

1) go to parents at 10am

2) make money later on in the day

and last but certainly not in the least....

3) end the carson daly show on nbc

Take the What Should Your New Year's Resolution Be? Quiz

on a lighter note, i think i can share some photos now. here are a few, but i don't really like how it works so i guess ill be spending more money soon.

pictures

okay, so i have decided that new years is just a big fucking trick. everyone (myself and yes, you my reader) thinks, "the world will be different, i'll be a different person. i won't do those bad things anymore. i will live my life to the fullest." and the day after new years day, you go vainly to your blog to see if anyone has posted, seeing none you check out other peoples blogs and find one where a friend cries for help because his parents:

a) think that his being gay is a psychological problem

2) he needs Christian Counseling to help him overcome his being gay and ultimately his depression-because depression is now only affiliated with the protestant religions and the catholic church

and
z) his friends at school who care about him and accept him for who he is are the evil cause of all things bad for their son.

fuck this! aaahhhhh!!!! when will this shit end? when will people just accept, shut their fucking mouths and love people for who they are? if anyone can tell me when, please let me know. you know what? the world is full of shit and i really do not look forward to going out into it after i graduate....

fuck.......

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

i hope everyone had a wonderful celebration last night. i had a blast! hopefully with the help from carlo, ill be able to post some for you all.

until i have more time to blog.....

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