Where has it all gone??
I want to go back to the days when I wanted to be an ecologist and a scientist. When I thought that I could change the world. I have migrated quite a distance from my seedling pursuit that I entertained during my AP Environmental Science class. I still really would like to work with nature and conservation in some way, but right now, I can't see how.
I have always wanted to be one of the people that filmed those 8th grade science/geography class videos that explores the life inside a distant land or how insects make the world go round. I want to live on a preserve and raise Bart the Bear.
But I did not ever pursue that goal. Somehow, I thought that theatre would be a more "realistic" career. Hey, I don't understand it either.
Now its not that I don't like working in the entertainment sector. I do. I am working at a profitable company-which, for most, is hard to say. I hope to begin working artistically again in under 6 months. And will more likely than not, I will start a theatre company with friends and collegues when we are all ready for the challenge.
I just wish I would have followed that dream. I want to be in a distant land, working with Animal Planet or National Geographic on something that needs help. I want to be working towards saving something. I want to help save wild animals that without me, would probably not make it.
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But, I am pulled to work everyday with a realist attitude. I have a job that will pay my bills for now and I am not really wanting anything-materialistic. I am craving the intangible right now. Those things that I cannot put my stamp on. Something that effects ME in my soul.
Why can't that be easier done than said?
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