Ecstacy Testing
Apparently, the Food and Drug Administration has approved the research of the drug MDMA on cancer patients. If you go to the website of the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies you can read more about it. T
he DEA has yet to approve of the test, and I am sure that they will strike it down. But, if they do not, how will they be able to justify their testing of MDMA and not on Marijuana for medical use?
MDMA has been linked to death and severe health problems such as stroke and heart attack. Ecstacy increases the heart rate and dehydrates the body, thus contributing to the severe problems and sometimes death. Marijuana on the other hand, has never been proven as the cause for any fatality.
Why is there a difference in the standards?
Where has it all gone??
I want to go back to the days when I wanted to be an ecologist and a scientist. When I thought that I could change the world. I have migrated quite a distance from my seedling pursuit that I entertained during my AP Environmental Science class. I still really would like to work with nature and conservation in some way, but right now, I can't see how.
I have always wanted to be one of the people that filmed those 8th grade science/geography class videos that explores the life inside a distant land or how insects make the world go round. I want to live on a preserve and raise Bart the Bear.
But I did not ever pursue that goal. Somehow, I thought that theatre would be a more "realistic" career. Hey, I don't understand it either.
Now its not that I don't like working in the entertainment sector. I do. I am working at a profitable company-which, for most, is hard to say. I hope to begin working artistically again in under 6 months. And will more likely than not, I will start a theatre company with friends and collegues when we are all ready for the challenge.
I just wish I would have followed that dream. I want to be in a distant land, working with Animal Planet or National Geographic on something that needs help. I want to be working towards saving something. I want to help save wild animals that without me, would probably not make it.
........
But, I am pulled to work everyday with a realist attitude. I have a job that will pay my bills for now and I am not really wanting anything-materialistic. I am craving the intangible right now. Those things that I cannot put my stamp on. Something that effects ME in my soul.
Why can't that be easier done than said?
Beware of Plastic Bottles
According to today's issue of the Chicago Tribune, the sherriff in DuPage County has warned the residents,
"If you find a plastic bottle filled with liquid anywhere, don't touch it, don't move it, just call 911."
Now, I find this hysterical. But to get the whole story, read the article.
Commenting on our Porno Culture
I was reading through the articles at salon.com as I always do in the morning when I noticed an article commenting on the blatant over-exposure of titilation that men recieve on a constant basis. It was something that I considered as I read through the two pages of the piece.
I don't want to seem Puritanical in saying this, but there is WAY TOO MUCH exposure in all forms of media.
At least read the article.
If you don't agree, thats fine. But I for one, rather prefer the "questions" as opposed to the "answers."
The Day of EHhhhhhhh..... . .. .. .. .
So today is the day of days. Man, I have just been sooooooooo super bored today. Work is getting more interesting. I did the Monday reports today and there were no problems. Yeah for me! Other than that, it has been a very loooow key day.
Tonight is my company Holiday Party. It's at The Apartment. I will go for alittle while, but unlike anyone in the rest of the management area, I have to work tomorrow. Alas, I must pay my dues.
So, I must get going. The phones have started to ring and work beckons. Later.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
So, as I was sitting here at my desk, awaiting a call from some school teacher from Indiana that wants to bring 35 pre-teens to the show, I overheard some company members in the greenroom. They were discussing the trailer that just came out for Charlie and the Chocolate Factory-the new Tim Burton/Johnny Depp incarnation. So I looked it up and found the trailer. I don't know what to make of it but it will at least be interesting to watch...
ding fries are done
yes i am really bored. turn your speakers on and about halfway to full volume. then click on this link, and enjoy!
i knew that there had to be something behind it all..
in my quest to find more satisfying news reports and information, i finally found myself at salon.com. perusing through the many articles, i stumbled across and article by Leonard Steinhorn. the piece was entitled: Scrooge's Nightmare. i only have two words to say to you about it.
read it!
the teaser day
years ago, thursdays used to be just anyother day. they came between wednesday and friday. usually i would have some sort of test or project that would happen on these days. thursdays were not important because friday sat on the horizon.
friday.
the day of paychecks and partying. those days when you would get your paycheck, go right to the bank, deposit some money and keep a substantial portion to spend on the delicacies of the partying college student that was kindofa hippie-but bathed.
but things have changed. now, every thursday, i am paid at work. (yes, i am paid weekly) this would be a great thing except for the fact that i still have to work the next day. i cannot eagerly anticipate the coming evening because i will have to wake up the next morning and trudge off to work.
instead, i find myself doublethinking myself into being responsible. i plan out how i will pay off bills and maintain a reliable budget that will sustain me in this rather expensive city that i find myself in.
i know that some of you are reading this and saying, "well ben, thats part of growing up. it's good to see that you are becoming a responsible adult. i don't know why you seem surprised by this."
i dont mean to be crass or rude, but fuck off. i am just lamenting the fact that my days of simple pleasures are gone and i now have to plan out a time when i can indulge my senses and relax.
god. today is going to take forever.
who would have ever guessed that i would be so happy to see my very first business card???
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
there is something to be said about going to a late lunch with good friends. you not only get the sensation that you have almost no work left to complete for the day, but there is also that feeling...that you are so full and content that you really dont want to move for a couple of hours.
here are the answers to questions that i know you are all thinking.
--fantastic-i love the city!
--no
--yes
--definetly yes
--not lately
--relaxed with just a tinge of happiness
--of course
--why dont you come over and ill smoke you up if you want to know......
and there you have it. anyother questions can be relagated to my secretary miss svandish.
