What once was lost, now is found...
I didn't know that this blog still existed. I think I am going to go through and weed out a number of terrible posts and leave anything that I think is abstract or whimsical enough to warrant another read one day.
I didn't know that this blog still existed. I think I am going to go through and weed out a number of terrible posts and leave anything that I think is abstract or whimsical enough to warrant another read one day.
i have left blogger because i find that i was never as witty as i would have liked to be. you can find me on myspace.com if you are looking for me. im under benjamin.
Katherine Shrader had an article printed in today's Chicago Tribune, Bush and is henchmen are trying to use scare tactics again in order to push their defense bill. Its so obvious it hurts.
"Speaking with one voice, President Bush's top intelligence and military officials said Wednesday that terrorists are regrouping for possible new strikes against the United States.
They said the best defense was for Congress to approve the president's military and anti-terror budget."
At least there seems to be some dissention in the ranks. Read the full article.
so i get phone calls all day at work. some of the people are happy, some are in a shitty mood, and some are just plain crazy. I just received the strangest call ever.
(beside from the guy who thought we were friends because of the "ben and jerry" link-his name is jerry....anyway)
i answered the phone with my hello and my name and was greeted by someone asking, "is there snow on the mountain?" ..........yeah. i cant make this shit up. then when i asked what they were looking for, the person threw attitude at me and said in a very haughty tone, "can you go ski?" after i told them that they were calling a theatre company in chicago, they quickly hung up--without even apologizing.
god i hate people....that must be why im in sales.
Apparently, the Food and Drug Administration has approved the research of the drug MDMA on cancer patients. If you go to the website of the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies you can read more about it. T
he DEA has yet to approve of the test, and I am sure that they will strike it down. But, if they do not, how will they be able to justify their testing of MDMA and not on Marijuana for medical use?
MDMA has been linked to death and severe health problems such as stroke and heart attack. Ecstacy increases the heart rate and dehydrates the body, thus contributing to the severe problems and sometimes death. Marijuana on the other hand, has never been proven as the cause for any fatality.
Why is there a difference in the standards?
I want to go back to the days when I wanted to be an ecologist and a scientist. When I thought that I could change the world. I have migrated quite a distance from my seedling pursuit that I entertained during my AP Environmental Science class. I still really would like to work with nature and conservation in some way, but right now, I can't see how.
I have always wanted to be one of the people that filmed those 8th grade science/geography class videos that explores the life inside a distant land or how insects make the world go round. I want to live on a preserve and raise Bart the Bear.
But I did not ever pursue that goal. Somehow, I thought that theatre would be a more "realistic" career. Hey, I don't understand it either.
Now its not that I don't like working in the entertainment sector. I do. I am working at a profitable company-which, for most, is hard to say. I hope to begin working artistically again in under 6 months. And will more likely than not, I will start a theatre company with friends and collegues when we are all ready for the challenge.
I just wish I would have followed that dream. I want to be in a distant land, working with Animal Planet or National Geographic on something that needs help. I want to be working towards saving something. I want to help save wild animals that without me, would probably not make it.
........
But, I am pulled to work everyday with a realist attitude. I have a job that will pay my bills for now and I am not really wanting anything-materialistic. I am craving the intangible right now. Those things that I cannot put my stamp on. Something that effects ME in my soul.
Why can't that be easier done than said?