okay, i got a digital camera and i don't know how to post pictures anywhere. can someone help me?
Couch Wisdom with Dingo
Sunday, December 29
Saturday, December 28
just finished "band of brothers" damn, that was a brilliant body of work. sometimes i feel that i was born at the wrong time. like i should have been alive in the 30s and 40s. maybe thats why i love history so much.....dont know. well i hope everyone is doing all right. it sounds like cammie is doing well ;). i need to run some errands so have a good night everyone. ill see you one the flip side.
Thursday, December 26
hello everyone! i am back after a 3 day absence. slept at my parents the last two nights-i cannot believe that i used to sleep on that bed! anyway, christmas was very odd. wonderful time and bontiful presents, but i just wasn't the happiest of midwestern boys. don't know why, but i think it has something to do with not smoking and hardly drinking. then again, i may just be odd. parents are good and my little sister is still a pain in the ass-but she is sweet when she wants to be. i got my digital camera so hopefully ill post some pictures soon. not much else. my apartment is a shithole. wasn't like that when i left so i need to say something to my roommates. need to get to cleaning and organizing all the gifts. ill post later....
i wish i was in vegas right now......
Sunday, December 22
do you want to get really angry? go here
and send lots of hate mail to letters@antipornguy.com
Saturday, December 21
so tonight i had a thought. i said to myself, "self, you need to get a message out to june and apologize. now, don't take back what you said to the individual that spoke to her about what was said, but apologize for upseting june. that's all, apologize but don't take anything back." now that's what i am doing right now. composing an email to smooth troubled waters the way i want them smoothed. there is something to be said about sticking to your word and i am not about to back down from what i said to jughead. i meant it and i still mean it. and if he hurts her again, i will bring unholy fire to his ass........
other than that, im peachy!
Friday, December 20
i am having the best evening. right now on a brief break. dinner at biaggi's. had a wonderful dessert called bananas foster. im gonna figure out how to make it and ill be back later with the recipe. well, i now need to run to the movie. im going to see gangs of new york tonight. i hope that it is as good as i think it will be.....
I'm Nelson, who are you? by Lexi
i must be in a bad mood.......
Thursday, December 19
i am an estp:
people of this type tend to be: active, adventurous, and impulsive; talkative and curious; casual, adaptive, and free spirited; logical and calm but capable of great humor, fun, and charm; observant and totally present in the moment, literal and practical.
The most important thing is the freedom to have fun and to fully experience life in the here and now.
damn, i know myself so well.....
i have had a good week so far. tomorrow i will get paid so i can then go and buy christmas presents for my family. went up to dewight last night to pick up a beautiful italian woman.
saw two towers last night.....i liked it, but i dont know if it was as impressive as the first.
well i must run and get cleaned up. work to do.
Tuesday, December 17
i have been lazy for 2 days now. its nice....................
yeah, i enjoy this.........
come back in a day
Sunday, December 15
so do you want to know what goes through the heart and mind of an italian like me?
in one night, i managed to say goodbye to two of the muses in my life. one was for forever, and the other one was till i saw her again in the much to distant future.
(i need a bottle of red wine and a captivating woman to stay the night with, thats all i want....really)
Saturday, December 14
well, just to let everyone know, i am feeling very good right now. carlo - i hear and understand, thankyou. everyone else thanks a bunch. i was just having a bad day. one of my moods. i did however have a wonderful evening. i went to kappa and had a blast! i know can say that i know an amature stripper quite intimately. sara hritz is my new love goddess. oh and cammie, i smiled all day long thanks to you....well i have a few confessions
1) i started smoking again tonight....i dont want to hear it so please, just keep the comments to yourself.
2) i am done with june. i realized that she makes my life way more complicated and if i sever the tie between us, i will be a lot better off.
3) i have to be at my parents place in less than three hours.
oh well, welcome to the life of benny
Friday, December 13
i am pissed at june. that is why im upset. thats why. why do all the answers in my life elude me until someone makes me smile and i think straight. i am pissed at june and i cant even say why because then most of you would know who im talking about and its not who you all would think of and im alittle tired of hearing how my life should go from other people......i love you all but dammit! let me lead my own life. i want the pitfalls and the heartaches along with the hightimes and the loves. just help me out, dont dictate how my life should go.
SOLITUDE SITS BY MY WINDOW
life is so interesting right now. i dont know if interesting is the right word, but thats all i have 10 minutes after i wake up in the morning. this semester has been filled with love that was lost, love that was mocked, lust that is mutual, friendships getting defined, reality setting in, and a lot of bong rips. its interesting to me how my life works. some days i take a glance at it and i smile, other days i want to just shed tears til tuesday. why am i cursed to feel so many things so deep and so true and live in the world that i do. i feel constantly put to the side or set off in the corner. and i just wanted to let all of you know that I FUCKING HATE THE CORNER......
i apologize for the outburst. i can tell that this will be one of my dark days. hopefully something will happen that will wash me free of the sludge that i feel suffocating me. i hate this right now, i really do. damn...............................................
funny how this post and my last post are complete opposites. i guess that tells more about me than anything else.
Thursday, December 12
Jeez Louise! You sure are a blissed out Peeg! In fact, we're gonna call you Bliss Peeg. (Not to be confused with Blitzkrieg, the Nazis' lightning war.)
Do you ever feel excitement? Resentment? Rage?
The answer is no; you're too relaxed all of the damn time to worry about things like tension and danger. Your dreams and desires revolve around the next time you go to bed; your main aim in life is to somehow scrounge a La-Z-Boy.
That's okay, though, bud. It's refreshing to want to stay and smell the flowers instead of climbing the painful ladder to victory. What's at the top, anyway? More stress?

Which Peeg are you?
ahhh ain't it the truth.......
Wednesday, December 11
i just watched ozzy osborne yell at the ocean and tell it to, "go back to fucking alaska."
funny shit.
WANTED
muse
qualifications:
1: must be beautiful(hey, its my muse)
2: must be single so no guilty feelings will be shared by anyone
3: must be able to smile and make the stars shine brighter then they ever have before
and most importantly
4: must be able to kick me in the ass everytime i fuck up my life
if you would like to inquire further please email bdyoung@ilstu.edu
Tuesday, December 10
i would just like to let everyone know that i am in the middle of finals hell and i have not had a cigarette now for 15 days......................... i want a smoke.
Sunday, December 8
have you ever wondered why everyone else in the world around you is so fucking retarded? i have. day started with waking up to loud ass crappy music from the guys that live below me. then i went to work. we had signs up all over saying where people should go to get tickets and pick up tickets that are already paid for. so then why did everyone come right up to me and ask me to give them their tickets. i could have shot someone. and now i get to go back. i cant wait. if their is a homicide in bloomington/normal, it may be because of me.
okay so i wont kill anyone. but i may give someone a very stern look.
Saturday, December 7
last night was fun. i got really stoned, drank a few beers and danced with some beautiful women. its an interesting feeling being the one guy dancing with 6 women!!! interesting in a good way. i also got to pull out alittle throwdown. had to tell a friend of mine that if he broke the heart of a female friend of mine, that i would have to "kick his fucking teeth in." this was all said with the full reality of the threat behind it but knowing that i should not and will not stop the two of them from doing anything. it feels good to know that if you cant have someone, at least you can kick the shit out of someone else if they fuck with her....
Thursday, December 5
well, okay. i think i am finally satisfied with this site. at least for awhile. if you dont like it, well ill listen to your complaints but i wont promise anything.
okay, if someone with the knowhow would like to let me in on the secret, how do i change the overall settings of my page so i can change the design and how would i get my blog links over to the side on another template? if anyone can help, please do so.
Wednesday, December 4
i know what it feels like to hold a $300 suit that has just gotten a good deal of paint on it. feel like i have just ruined a wonderful black suit, and then i take a washrag and hot water and scrub the majority of the paint off. now i just have to wait for the cleaners tomorrow. cross your fingers....i feel good about it. damn, see! this is why material possessions are horrible. they stress you out way too much!!!!
Tuesday, December 3
so, i am done. im done with theatre management. im done with my theatre history paper. all i have left to do is take my oral final for italian tomorrow and im not too worried about that. just have a rehearsal at 5 and two shows tonight. carlo's show is really good. psychodrama is always a nice thing to be a part of. anyway, party time for me real soon.
Monday, December 2
murder she wrote was just a really weird show. i mean, hows does a really old lady fend off people that are killing other people. why is it that no one ever went after good ole angela lansbury? its a mystery.
Sunday, December 1
okay, i just made the best lunch. i pride myself on being a good cook, but i did very well today. i had butter and garlic rice in a white wine sauce, toasted fresh bread with butter, and a breaded chicken breast. damn...im really good at this stuff.
list of things to do today:
1. clean room
2. drop off homework at theatre building
3. do all reasearch for theatre history paper
4. go to rehearsal at 7pm
5. start theatre history paper
6. if there is any time, why not crack open italian and flip through the pages that you decided to skip class for......the last 4 weeks
(i am retarded)
well the day after thanksgiving was a long one. may i suggest that if anyone asks you, even your mother, if you would like to help out with a fundraiser that bags items at a kohl's department store after the checker does the little scany job..........for the day after thanksgiving.......at 6am.......SAY NO THANKS!
i unfortunatly have the curse of being too nice.

